same ol', same ol'...

anybody out there concerned more with coping with themselves than with others?
blood is thicker than water, they say. heh.
i'm working on a science project wherein i plan to walk a peculiar sort of razor's edge (Occam's?) that tests the limits of all the individuals that i interract with so that i may understand the standards of the everyman.
standards? standards of living. standards of language. standards of behavior. standards of compassion. standards of respect. standards of lenience. standards of expectation. standards of retalliation. standards of consideration. standards of patience.
where is the line that one may cross that will sever the link between one person and another?
my hypothesis is that folks will wander through a labyrinth of material expectation: the fear of any given subject in a secure role will make aformentioned subject do everything in his/her power to maintain said security.
read that a few times, to yerself if that doesn't gel...
conversely: one that relies on another without the ability to legitimately survive without that person is a parasite.
what, in human terms, separates a parasite from one lifeform that harmoniously coexists with another lifeform?
perhaps that is the line that i am trying to define through my foggy vision.
i am thinking of dad. he legitimately had no real friends long before his passing. i marveled at this when i was a kid. how could one have no pals and still live? i fear that i am slowly beginning to understand this phenomenon. i have divorced myself from society. i care only for my appetites and the well-being of my immediate relations. the more of my immediate relations that i alienate the more that i begin to realize the very realistic way that one may find themselves utterly alone, wondering why everyone else has forsaken them...
when you care only for your own appetites and the well being of your own private cohort; what is the result of your cohort letting go of you because of your appetites and the resulting behavior? ugh..............